back to the stage where i did not want to lay
unable to see anything in front of me except for what i lack
i am incapable of being the one that has what i do not
i fall short to the qualites that i do not hold
however i decieved myself that i was that with all together
is this why i lay here naked on the stage with no audience before me
while you glide and receieve all the applause?
i do not know
i wonder if what i am pondering is even true
i wrap myself up in these games of the mind
wishing them to be as false as they are true
but coming to no realization, no common ground
because the answer lies within you
i am afraid to fall short, while everyone is above me dangling
i have a problem with failure and rejection
i have a problem with the fact that in my investment i see no return
maybe of all the hearts i have burned
i am starting to feel the after effect
the karma they said would come back for me
i want so bad for it to be you, but instead its karma
and not my dream come true
im writing to get out of this nightmare
which in time i think i might do,
however right now i think my best remedy
is only you